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part #2 of A Court the Thorns and Roses series by buy it J. Maas
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because that Josh and also Annie— my own Court of desires CONTENTS part ONE THE home OF BEASTS thing 1 chapter 2 thing 3 chapter 4 thing 5 thing 6 thing 7 chapter 8 thing 9 chapter 10 chapter 11 chapter 12 thing 13 component TWO THE home OF WIND thing 14 chapter 15 chapter 16 thing 17 thing 18 thing 19 thing 20 thing 21 thing 22 thing 23 chapter 24 chapter 25 thing 26 chapter 27 thing 28 thing 29 chapter 30 thing 31 thing 32 chapter 33 thing 34 thing 35 thing 36 chapter 37 chapter 38 chapter 39 chapter 40 thing 41 chapter 42 chapter 43 thing 44 thing 45 thing 46 chapter 47 thing 48 chapter 49 thing 50 thing 51 component THREE THE residence OF MIST chapter 52 thing 53 thing 54 thing 55 thing 56 thing 57 thing 58 thing 59 chapter 60 chapter 61 chapter 62 chapter 63 chapter 64 chapter 65 chapter 66 chapter 67 thing 68 thing 69 Acknowledgments also by sarah J. Maas possibly I’d always been broken and also dark inside. Probably someone who’d been born whole and good would have put down the ash dagger and embraced death fairly than what lay before me. There to be blood everywhere. It was an effort to keep a tight on the dagger as my blood-soaked hand trembled. As I fractured bit by little bit while the sprawled corpse of the High Fae youth cooled on the marble floor. Ns couldn’t let walk of the blade, couldn’t move from mine place before him. “Good,” Amarantha purred from her throne. “Again.” there was one more ash dagger waiting, and also another Fae kneeling. Female. I knew the indigenous she’d say. The prayer she’d recite. Ns knew I’d slaughter her, as I’d slaughtered the youth prior to me. To totally free them all, to complimentary Tamlin, ns would carry out it. I was the butcher that innocents, and the savior the a land. “Whenever she ready, lovely Feyre,” Amarantha drawled, she deep red hair as bright together the blood on my hands. Top top the marble. Murderer. Butcher. Monster. Liar. Deceiver. Ns didn’t recognize who ns meant. The lines in between me and the queen had actually long because blurred. My fingers loosened top top the dagger, and it clattered to the ground, splattering the spreading pool of blood. Flecks splashed onto mine worn boots—remnants that a mortal life so much behind me that might as well have been among my fever-dreams these couple of last months. I faced the female wait for death, that hood sagging over her head, she lithe human body steady. Braced for the finish I to be to offer her, the sacrifice she to be to become. I reached for the 2nd ash dagger atop a black velvet pillow, the hilt icy in my warm, wet hand. The safety yanked off she hood. I knew the face that stared up at me. Knew the blue-gray eyes, the brown-gold hair, the full mouth and also sharp cheekbones. Knew the ear that had actually now come to be delicately arched, the four that had actually been streamlined, limned through power, any type of human imperfections smoothed right into a ethereal immortal glow. Knew the hollowness, the despair, the corruption that leaked from the face. My hands didn’t tremble together I angled the dagger. Together I gripped the fine-boned shoulder, and gazed right into that hated face—my face. And plunged the ash dagger into my awaiting heart. Component ONE THE house OF BEASTS thing 1 i vomited right into the toilet, hugging the cool sides, trying to contain the sounds of mine retching. Moonlight leaked right into the huge marble shower room, offering the just illumination as I was quietly, thoroughly sick. Tamlin hadn’t stirred as I’d jolted awake. And also when ns hadn’t been able come tell the darkness the my chamber from the endless night of Amarantha’s dungeons, once the cold sweat coating me felt favor the blood of those faeries, I’d hurtled for the bathing room. I’d been here for fifteen minute now, waiting for the retching to subside, for the lingering tremors to spread out apart and fade, favor ripples in a pool. Panting, ns braced myself over the bowl, counting every breath. Only a nightmare. One of many, asleep and waking, the haunted me this days. It had been three months since Under the Mountain. 3 months of adjusting to my immortal body, come a people struggling to piece itself together after Amarantha had fractured it apart. I concentrated on my breathing—in through my nose, out with my mouth. Over and also over. As soon as it seemed choose I was done heaving, i eased indigenous the toilet—but didn’t walk far. Just to the adjacent wall, close to the cracked window, whereby I might see the night sky, wherein the breeze could caress my sticky face. I leaned mine head versus the wall, flattening mine hands against the chilled marble floor. Real. This was real. I had actually survived; I’d made the out. Unless it to be a dream—just a fever-dream in Amarantha’s dungeons, and I’d awaken back in that cell, and— ns curled my knee to mine chest. Real. Real. Ns mouthed the words. I retained mouthing them till I could loosen my grip on my legs and also lift mine head. Ache splintered through my hands— I’d somehow curled them right into fists so tight mine nails to be close come puncturing my skin. Immortal strength—more a curse than a gift. I’d dented and folded every piece of silverware I’d touch for 3 days upon return here, had tripped end my longer, much faster legs so often that Alis had actually removed any irreplaceable valuables from mine rooms (she’d been specifically grumpy around me knocking over a table through an eight-hundred-year-old vase), and also had shattered no one, not two, but five glass doors simply by accidentally closeup of the door them as well hard. Sighing v my nose, I unfolded my fingers. My appropriate hand to be plain, smooth. Perfect Fae. Ns tilted my left hand over, the whorls that dark ink coating mine fingers, my wrist, mine forearm every the means to the elbow, soaking up the darkness that the room. The eye etched into the facility of mine palm seemed to clock me, calm and also cunning together a cat, the slitted pupil more comprehensive than it’d been previously that day. As if it changed to the light, as any ordinary eye would. I scowled at it. At whoever might be watching with that tattoo. I hadn’t heard indigenous Rhys in the 3 months I’d been here. Not a whisper. Ns hadn’t dared ask Tamlin, or Lucien, or anyone—lest it’d in which method summon the High mr of the Night Court, somehow repeat him that the fool’s bargain I’d struck Under the Mountain: one week with him every month in exchange for his saving me from the brink of death.> but even if Rhys had miraculously forgotten, I never could. Nor could Tamlin, Lucien, or anyone else. Not through the tattoo. Also if Rhys, in ~ the finish … even if that hadn’t been precisely an enemy. To Tamlin, yes. Come every various other court the end there, yes. So few went end the boundaries of the Night Court and also lived come tell. No one yes, really knew what existed in the northernmost component of Prythian. Mountains and also darkness and stars and death. But I hadn’t felt choose Rhysand’s foe the critical time I’d spoken to him, in the hours after Amarantha’s defeat. I’d called no one about that meeting, what he’d claimed to me, what I’d confessed to him. It is in glad the your human being heart, Feyre. Pity those who don’t feeling anything in ~ all. Ns squeezed mine fingers into a fist, blocking out that eye, the tattoo. I uncoiled to my feet, and flushed the toilet prior to padding come the sink come rinse out my mouth, then to wash my face. Ns wished i felt nothing. I wished my human heart had actually been adjusted with the remainder of me, made right into immortal marble. Rather of the shredded little of blackness that it currently was, leaking that is ichor into me. Tamlin continued to be asleep together I crept earlier into my darkened bedroom, his naked body sprawled across the mattress. For a moment, I just admired the an effective muscles the his back, therefore lovingly traced through the moonlight, his gold hair, mussed with sleep and the fingers I’d run v it while us made love earlier. For him, I had done this—for him, I’d gladly wrecked myself and my immortal soul. And also now I had actually eternity to live v it. I ongoing to the bed, each action heavier, harder. The sheets were currently cool and also dry, and I slipped in, curling my earlier to him, wrapping my arms roughly myself. His breathing was deep—even. Yet with mine Fae ear … periodically I wonder if i heard his breath catch, just for a heartbeat. Ns never had actually the nerve come ask if he was awake. He never woke as soon as the nightmares dragged me indigenous sleep; never woke when I vomited mine guts up night after night. If he knew or heard, he said nothing about it. Ns knew similar dreams chased that from his slumber as regularly as i fled from mine. The first time it had happened, I’d awoken—tried come speak to him. Yet he’d shaken off my touch, his skin clammy, and also had shifted right into that beast of fur and also claws and horns and fangs. He’d invested the remainder of the night sprawled throughout the foot that the bed, monitoring the door, the wall surface of windows. He’d because spent plenty of nights like that. Cutting in the bed, ns pulled the ceiling higher, yearn its warmth versus the chilled night. That had become our unspoken agreement—not to let Amarantha win by acknowledging that she tho tormented united state in our dreams and also waking hours. It was less complicated to not need to explain, anyway. To not have to tell him that though I’d freed him, saved his world and every one of Prythian native Amarantha … I’d damaged myself apart. And also I no think also eternity would be long enough to deal with me. Chapter 2 “I want to go.” “No.” i crossed mine arms, tucking my tattooed hand under my appropriate bicep, and also spread my feet slightly further apart on the dust floor that the stables. “It’s been 3 months. Nothing’s happened, and also the town isn’t even five miles—” “No.” The midmorning sunlight streaming with the secure doors burnished Tamlin’s gold hair together he perfect buckling the bandolier the daggers across his chest. His face—ruggedly handsome, exactly as I’d dreamy it during those lengthy months he’d worn a mask—was set, his lips a thin line. Behind him, currently atop his dapple-gray horse, along with three other Fae lord-sentries, Lucien silently shook his head in warning, his steel eye narrowing. Don’t push him, he seemed to say. However as Tamlin strode toward where his black color stallion had currently been saddled, i gritted my teeth and stormed after him. “The town needs all the help it have the right to get.” “And we’re still searching down Amarantha’s beasts,” he said, mounting his equine in one fluid motion. Sometimes, ns wondered if the horses were just to maintain an illustration of civility—of normalcy. To pretend that he couldn’t run quicker than them, no live with one foot in the forest. His green eyes were like chips of ice as the stallion started into a walk. “I don’t have actually the sentries to preventive to escort you.” ns lunged because that the bridle. “I don’t need an escort.” mine grip tightened top top the leather as I tugged the horse to a stop, and the golden ring on mine finger—along through the square-cut emerald glittering atop it—flashed in the sun. It had actually been two months because Tamlin had actually proposed—two month of enduring presentations about flowers and also clothes and seating arrangements and also food. I’d had actually a little reprieve a week ago, thanks to the Winter Solstice, though I’d traded contemplating lace and also silk for choosing evergreen wreaths and garlands. But at the very least it had been a break. Three days that feasting and also drinking and also exchanging tiny presents, finishing in a long, rather odious consciousness atop the foothills on the longest night to escort us from one year to an additional as the sun died and also was born anew. Or something choose that. Celebrating a winter vacation in a location that was permanently entrenched in feather hadn’t done much to boost my basic lack of festive cheer. I hadn’t an especially listened come the explanations the its origins—and the Fae themselves questioned whether that had emerged from the Winter Court or job Court. Both now asserted it as their holiest holiday. All ns really knew was that I’d had to endure 2 ceremonies: one in ~ sunset to begin that countless night the presents and dancing and also drinking in honor of the old sun’s death; and one at the complying with dawn, bleary-eyed and feet aching, come welcome the sun’s rebirth. It was poor enough that I’d been compelled to stand before the gathered courtiers and also lesser faeries if Tamlin do his numerous toasts and salutes. Stating that my birthday had additionally fallen on the longest night of the year was a reality I’d conveniently forget to tell anyone. I’d received sufficient presents, anyway—and would no doubt obtain many, many an ext on my wedding day. Ns had little use because that so plenty of things. Now, just two weeks stood in between me and the ceremony. If i didn’t get out of the manor, if ns didn’t have actually a job to perform something various other than invest Tamlin’s money and be groveled to— “Please. The recovery initiatives are therefore slow. I can hunt for the villagers, get them food—” “It’s not safe,” Tamlin said, again nudging his stallion right into a walk. The horse’s coat shone like a dark mirror, also in the shade of the stables. “Especially no for you.” He’d claimed that every time we had actually this argument; every time i begged him to let me go to the nearby village of High Fae to help rebuild what Amarantha had shed years ago. I followed him right into the bright, cloudless day past the stables, the grasses coating the surrounding foothills undulating in the soft breeze. “People want to come back, they want a place to live—” “Those same people see you as a blessing—a marker of stability. If something happened to girlfriend … ” He reduced himself off as he halted his horse at the sheet of the dirt path that would certainly take him towards the eastern woods, Lucien currently waiting a couple of yards under it. “There’s no allude in rebuilding something if Amarantha’s creatures tear with the lands and destroy it again.” “The wards space up—” “Some slipped in prior to the wards were repaired. Lucien pursued down five naga yesterday.” i whipped my head toward Lucien, that winced. He hadn’t said me that at dinner last night. He’d lied when I’d asked him why he was limping. My stomach turned over—not just at the lie, yet … naga. Sometimes I dreamed of their blood showering me together I eliminated them, of your leering serpentine deals with while lock tried come fillet me in the woods. Tamlin said softly, “I can’t execute what I have to if ns worrying around whether she safe.” “Of course I’ll be safe.” as a High Fae, with my strength and also speed, I’d was standing a an excellent chance of gaining away if miscellaneous happened. “Please—please just do this because that me,” Tamlin said, stroking his stallion’s thick neck as the beast nickered v impatience. The others had currently moved their equines into easy canters, the an initial of them almost within the the shade of the woods. Tamlin jerked his chin toward the alabaster estate looming behind me. “I’m sure there are things to aid with approximately the house. Or you might paint. Shot out that new set I offered for you for Winter Solstice.” There was nothing but wedding planning wait for me in the house, because Alis refused to permit me background a finger to execute anything. Not since of who I was to Tamlin, what i was around to end up being to Tamlin, but … since of what I’d done because that her, for her boys, because that Prythian. All the servants were the same; part still cried v gratitude when they pass me in the halls. And as for painting … “Fine,” i breathed. I made myself look him in the eye, made myself smile. “Be careful,” i said, and meant it. The believed of him going the end there, searching the monsters that had once served Amarantha … “I love you,” Tamlin stated quietly. I nodded, murmuring it earlier as that trotted to where Lucien still waited, the emissary currently frowning slightly. Ns didn’t watch them go. Ns took my time retreating through the hedges of the gardens, the spring birds chirping merrily, gravel crunching under my flimsy shoes. I hated the bright dresses that had come to be my everyday uniform, but didn’t have the heart to tell Tamlin—not once he’d bought for this reason many, not when he looked therefore happy to see me undertake them. Not when his words weren’t far from the truth. The job I put on my pants and tunics, the day i strapped weapons to myself like fine jewelry, it would certainly send a article far and clear across the lands. So i wore the gowns, and let Alis arrange my hair—if only so it would certainly buy these human being a measure of peace and also comfort. At least Tamlin no object come the dagger I maintained at mine side, hanging from a jeweled belt. Lucien had actually gifted both come me—the dagger throughout the months prior to Amarantha, the belt in the weeks after her downfall, as soon as I’d carried the dagger, together with many others, everywhere I went. You might as well look great if you’re walking to eight yourself to the teeth, the said. Yet even if security reigned for a hundreds years, I doubted I’d ever before awaken one morning and also not placed on the knife.